Charleston is a VERY expensive place to live.
I managed it for about two years, but jobs here are notorious for not paying people enough to survive here, so I had to bite the bullet and get a roommate.
Luckily, it’s a roommate that I love, and while she is fantastic, I 100000% miss having my own place.
I can usually manage a day where I can just lock myself in my room and recharge, but lately, with an impending wedding coming up (not mine, but I’m the unofficial maid-of-honor and best man), trips to see family, and a constant round of visitors, I have not had the chance to recharge like I’ve been needing to.
Long days usually result in me becoming this cranky ball of emotions and that just seems to be compounding on additional expectations that I be sociable at home and at work, dealing with family bullshit, and feeling trapped as I keep searching for a clear reset button for my life.
But, some good things.
We had a visitor this weekend, but I was able to have the kitchen to myself for about 2 hours to work on some funfetti cupcakes with whipped cream cheese frosting. I wanted to try my hand with fancy cake decorating, and I tried to copy this awesome cupcake decorating video I found (once I find it again, I’ll link it here).
Not perfect, but it was very fun! I wasn’t worried about the taste. I’m confident enough in my baking prowess that they would be DELICIOUS (spoiler alert: they were), but I am not the BEST at decorating. This was my first go at using stabilized whipped cream and the Wilton gel food coloring to make something half-way decent.
Not wedding cake worthy, but not bad for my first time if I do say so myself 😀
So, while not quite the introvert time I needed, it was a very lovely 2 hours.
Then came yesterday.
Tuesdays are my Mondays. I dread them and they feel like they last forever, but while I had plenty to do, and yesterday didn’t feel as horrible, I was slightly spiraling until I ended up having a minor anxiety attack in the middle of the day.
I was tired of answering the same questions over and over, my little brother is acting like a shit at home, the house is perpetually messy (thanks to two dogs and being the only roommate that freaking vacuums), and I hadn’t heard a single thing back yet from all of the different job applications I’ve sent out.
My response to an anxiety attack is to sweat it out. So with a fake smile on my face, I was able to book it across campus to the gym and run for about 40 minutes. I still felt a little bit like crying on my way back to the library, but I was able to manage it.
Then, I saw my email.
Two libraries extended an invitation for a video interview!! One is at the University of Nebraska at Omaha (pretty close to where I used to live/work in Iowa), and the other is at Juniata College in Huntingdon, PA.
I’M SO FREAKING EXCITED.
Both places definitely have their pros and cons, but I’m excited at the job opportunities and the chance to try something new (also both places are much more affordable than Charleston, which means I will be able to live on my own again!!!)
Also, they are both not in the South. 😀